"The lines have fallen for me in pleasant places, indeed."
psalm 16:6
I found this picture last night of mama in 2004 with her littlest girls (Man were they cute. And little!) (Oh! And the baby she is holding is our youngest cousin, "Alec-son!")
It brought back so many memories. It was a hard year. Mom had a miscarriage in the fall, but that miscarriage led to us discovering she had cancer. We've reflected often how kind of God it was to let mom have that miscarriage: if she had never even been pregnant with that baby, she wouldn't have been in the doctor's office discovering a weird lump in her breast! If the baby hadn't miscarried, however, she would be facing months of no treatment, which would likely have let her cancer spread to the point where it was out of control (her cancer seems to spread fast and furious!)
"Your eyes saw his unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for" BabyBaby Snyder.
That little Snyder child saved mama's life. It's days were numbered, before there was yet one of them. The little life was not wasted or unimportant and we loved that baby. We still do.
It's a sweet reminder to us as we face this again. It's kind of God, for many reasons, to have us walk through this at this time. Mom's life is valuable to God and her days are numbered. Cancer will not shorten her life, cancer will not rob her of life, cancer will not win, cancer is not more powerful than God.
"In His book are written, every one of them, the days that were formed for Mama Bear, when as yet there was none of them."
Our Father has promised her eternal life, Jesus came to secure life, the King will and has won, and nothing, nothing, absolutely nothing is more good and simultaneously powerful than our God.
As mom's hair begins to fall out again, we treasure verses like these: "Even the hairs of your head are numbered." "You who have been borne by me from before your birth, carried from the womb; even to your old age I am He, and to gray hairs I will carry you. I have made, and I will bear and I will carry."
The lines (and hairs!) have fallen for us in pleasant places. Therefore my heart is glad and my whole being rejoices!
Prayer Requests
- Mom's bones in her legs hurt her the most these days. May God relieve her of pain! May He strengthen her bones!
- We are on the hunt for a pretty wig and awesome hats. Pray we find some good options, so mama feels like a lovely woman and not a mannequin ;)
Praise Report
- Mom is in Maryland with me for a week and she went to see her Maryland doctor. The doctor (who we all love and worked with mom last time she had cancer) was very optimistic. Her conversation with mom encouraged us all and we are thrilled to be able to have Dr. Raj involved again. What a blessing!
- Mom is as beautiful as ever. Seriously. If you have a chance to see her in person you'll find it hard not to stare. She's so lovely.
Kristen, Thanks for your updates. You are so right - your mom is so lovely! I told her that I had to put on make up just to have breakfast with her because she looks so good in all her photos and everyone who sees her comments on how good she looks. She told me that you (Kristen) make sure that she looks beautiful all the time. Thanks for taking such good care of her!!!
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ReplyDeleteI just spent some time this morning reading all your Mama Bear posts. I am in tears as I write this, mainly because of all the incredibly unselfish love that I see exhibited by you and your mom through all of this, which I know can only come from one source - Jesus. Your mom encouraged me in 2007 when I walked through my own bought with breast cancer (though not as severe as hers) and she continues to encourage me today as I read about how others-focused she is (your wedding dress story!) and how she has such a balanced perspective on this life and eternity. Please tell her for me that I want to be like her if ever I reach the point where she is - facing stage 4 cancer. I see the strength of the Savior in her, and since He lives in me, that is the soucre of my hope. Much love to you all, dear Kristen.
~ Linda
I love that: "Cancer will not shorten her life." So encouraging!!! Praying for your family, Kristen. God bless you for trusting this time in your life to Him completely!!!!
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